Friday, January 30, 2009


Have you ever had one of those moments where you wonder to yourself where you've been all your life? One of those instances where all of a sudden, your soul wakes up and makes you realize you've been sitting still for so long, stagnant and unfruitful, not moving forward at all? I've had several moments like that lately. Not that I think my entire life thus far has been wasted, but that more recently I've passed over opportunities, friendships, and lessons that make life worth living. Things that I should've recognized as blessings from God that I clearly took for granted, sins that I've excused, and too much time to myself to think... it's all building up to the point where I can hardly see why Christ would ever save a soul like mine.

I think that all this, reaching its pinnacle just here recently, has taught me that only the miraculous power of God can break down the barriers of sin I have slowly put up, in order for Him to reach my tender heart. When He forgives, He truly forgives, but I must genuinely ask for it. The fact that I'm just now realizing this, that I can't handle eliminating sin on my own, is a little humiliating and breathtaking at the same time. Our sovereign God, our sweet Savior, is the only one who can break us from this frustrating bondage. It brings to my mind this desperate verse in the Psalms:

"Yet I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer; O my God, do not delay." -Psalm

Only when I come to the Lord with a broken and contrite spirit will He receive me. And when He receives me, what a blessed thing that is, to know that I'm completely forgiven, able to break away from the bonds of sin! I am free!

I'm a complete random music junkie. One of my favorite music artists is Jimmy Needham, and his song Hurricane is one of my current favorites. I'll let the lyrics speak for themselves.

I have built a city here
Half with pride and half with fear
Just wanted a safer place to hide
I don't want to be safe tonight

I need You like a hurricane
Thunder crashing, wind and rain
To tear my walls down
I'm only Yours now
I need You like a burning flame
A wildfire untamed
To burn these walls down
I'm only Yours now

I am Yours, and You are mine
You know far better than I
And if destruction's what I need,
Then I'll receive it Lord, from Thee
Yes, I'll receive it Lord, from Thee

And it's Your eye in the storm
Watching over me
And it's Your eye in the storm
Wanting only good for me
And if You are the war
Let me be the casualty
Til I'm Yours alone
I am only Yours
I am Yours alone, Lord

Come be my hurricane


  1. Wow, Emily. that was beautiful! the song and the post!

    I am going to be a follower :) because I am sure you have some powerful thoughts and encouraging words to write.

  2. Your writing is insightful and April and I enjoy reading your work. Keep it up!

  3. Awesome thoughts!
    Awesome song!
    Just gotta love that grace...