I have this markerboard that I leave propped up against the mirror on the bathroom countertop that is constantly being updated with prayer requests and concerns that need to be lifted up to the Lord, and I feel like that markerboard has been put to extra-special use here lately. Sickness, pain, and discord... 3 things I do not handle well... they have inflicted an alarming amount of people who are close to me.
I could say that I have handled it well. And honestly, if you look at it from the outside, it would seem that I am completely calm and trusting. But the turmoil that's been going on inside my mind is more than I care to have to confess!
It's funny how I think that I can handle things on my own. I've always been that girl- the one who hates group projects because I have to rely on other people to get something done, the one who takes matters into her own hands, the one who can never say no to anything. It's a problem, and it isn't something I say with much pride. And to top it all off, it completely ruins my faith & trust in God.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and
petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God,
which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in
Christ Jesus." -Phil. 4:6-7
"'But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us.' 'If you can?' said
Jesus. 'Everything is possible for him who believes.' Immediately the boy's
father exlaimed, 'I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!'" -Mark 9:22-24
I feel so overwhelmed and burdened with all these things I feel that I need to be taking to the Lord. I know that He can change the course of their lives and heal according to His will, but for some reason I continue to cling to the idea that nothing can happen unless I have something to do with that process. I'm letting go and letting God handle it all... He is a good God, He loves us, and He is big enough to handle all of the requests and needs of the entire world- which is a little crazy to think about! And none of this is by my own power. Not one ounce of it.
One more thing. Go to this link, which talks about the precious Burmese people that I have come to love- many go to my church. This awful persecution affects even the refugees that live in Bowling Green, for they have many close family members and friends who will be sent back into Burma. My heart burns for them... would you please pray for them?
"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the
man who takes refuge in Him!" -Psalm 34:8